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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 20.06.2025 13:29

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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She found it foreign!.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

It seems that I am cursed with bad luck. How do I break such a curse?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why is dating so frustrating and difficult for a guy?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Why do I get stressed when I go to bed?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I never cut or harmed myself..

How exactly do things get smuggled into prison? Does the sender hide it inside something else very well? Does someone put it in their butt? Do the prisoners make deals with the officers?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was scared of men, in general

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It was going to be , some day.

She was in good health!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

So whats the point in blame.

We all went to grammer schools

Who then, do I blame.?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I think the readers, may guess!

She loved him until the end.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I couldn’t, believe it.

All the time i was locked up.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My life is so biszare .

He knew the spot.

What did i know ?

But, we were locked up after school.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But it wasn’t much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Put me off passion for life!!

I have no regrets .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Would this be the day?

I was 9 years of age.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He resisted the act ,that day.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She wouldn,t have been !

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We were not on the streets..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I will be 64.

I write beautiful poetry .

(And it was in our own minds.)

Especially a lifetime of it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She married twice! .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

When she asked me how she looked .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I don,t even have a pension.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I waited trembling.

One cannot live in the past .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And i lived it daily.

I said to her

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was seconnd youngest,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

So, i spoilt her more .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im still living with it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My family never makes their pension either.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was very sick at this time too.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Why did i forgive my father ?

This is soul school!.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ive learnt so much.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Comes on , in middle age.